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December 16th, 2009
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December 15th, 2009
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December 14th, 2009
katylin
 | 05:38 pm - PIF insurance issues
I hate Group Health
They tried to kill me. Not a joke, really, and did a horrible job with me when I fell several years back.
The big main GH on Capital Hill in Seattle.
It was scary.
At this point and after owing $3,000 to Harbor View GH transferred me, (yes I got to pay for both!)
I went onto Mr. J's insurance.
He lost is awesome wonderful amazing insurance October 2008 when he was let go. I therefor paid cobra some $800 a month until he was hired at this last new work place in April.
We knew that we wanted a baby and there was no way that I would allow GH to be part of that delivery.
When Mr. J transferred to the April work place, he was allowed to take their insurance and I was allowed to continue on with my own plan for Cobra. It went up to $383 a month.
I have paid that... I had three more month until it ended 04.01.10
I have also just that amount of time with the baby until the delivery date.
If something was wrong, I wanted to have the whole month of March to have it addressed on this awesome insurance.
I got a letter in the mail FRIDAY the 11th stating that my Cobra has ended because that other company has joined a new company and they have a new plan... no details could be provided.
WHAT?
So I contacted the broker, the plan has yet to be set up in the system but the following things I knew for sure.
NO NATURAL CARE. NO BASTYR, NO NATUROPATHIC DOCTOR, NO ACUPUNCTURE, and NO ONE CAN TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT HOME DELIVERY.
Really.
BLUE SHIELD OF TEXAS CAN YOU REALLY BE THAT BACKWARDS?
I am under the gun to sign up by 12/25, which for business days is 6 days, 8 total days. Hello.
I can't believe after all this planning, all this time, all this working towards a goal, that here we are...
I am so not surprised. I am just so bummed out.
We had made it past the renewal period last May, and the plan stayed the same, who knew it would jack up with 12 weeks left.
WOW.
Anyone know about Continuity of Care??
I am not sure what to do.
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December 13th, 2009
katylin
| 05:05 pm - PIF and the gamut of pregnancy!
I am not sure that anyone should read this: before eating, after eating, thinking about eating, having eaten in the last 24 hours.
I feared that I had been contaminated with Giardia enteritis or Beaver Fever in Canada-land on our "worst lover's weekend ever!" It was so bad that I never even blogged about it.
There were no photo's taken- other than the GREEN WATER INSIDE THE HOTEL BATHTUB!!
Upon arriving home, I had a very long week where I felt overly tired and sightly off but felt I had passed the waiting period. Until Tuesday the 1st of December.
I woke with a fury of diarrhea. Same though Wednesday, and Thursday and Friday. I was so ill Friday I cried all day, and only managed to do, was bleach my hair, not color it, clean the house, get anything ready for Christmas, OR make ANY MOTION OF GETTING READY FOR MR. J'S BIG WINTER FORMAL CHRISTMAS PARTY!
I missed it. I had a dress picked out since June. A brand new silver fringe baby bump dress. I wanted to curl my hair, put make up and heals and go to a party.
Instead I cried on the couch and we stayed home.
The next day was baking day. NOTHING happened! I stayed in bed.
Sunday we were to pick out our tree from our friend's lot!
I was all excited for weeks, and I could not rise.
I made it out of bed just before the 5 p.m. service for church, because we had a movie date with the pastor and his wife afterward. It was long time coming and I did not think that I could simply cancel. I knew I was not infectious... so I went.
I feel asleep in their home move theater.
We had a nice talk afterward, I was glad I went but asleep as soon as we walked into our own house.
Monday I called my Midwife. No answer. I called the Nurse hotline and was not sure of what to do. I felt horrible.
I got a call back Tuesday. I could be seen Wednesday morning.
I had terrible constipation on Wednesday. Who would think?
8 days of diarrhea every time I urinated and now that I need to present a stool sample I could not poop.
Still Wednesday:
I drank 16 ounces of coffee.
I ate a huge bran muffin.
I sat in hot water.
Nothing.
I was still taking my alfalfa grass caplets.
I finally with much pain could surrender a sample 8 hours later.
I was starving Thursday. Nothing much had stayed in me.
Thursday night, after work, I ate some flank steak that had been over cooked, and was chewy... but it was hot and dinner, and I had not eaten much.
Friday.
WOW.
Friday, it took me an hour to pass Thursday night's dinner.
It made my bottom bleed. I feared rectal fishers.
I felt horrible after. All the water that I had drank and the alfalfa grass had not made any dent. Nor the bran...
By midday Friday I had my first experience with hemorrhoids. By Friday night one was bigger than an almond in a shell. It was longer than my thumb nail...
(almost an inch)
It was prune purple and black.
It hurt to move at all, stand, walk, sit.
Saturday, I was in total disbelief that it had not retracted. After a hot bath and upon advice I actually convinced myself to put on Preparation H, and with a gloved had slide this hemorrhoid back inside. I cried.
However within only a few minutes it had totally slid right back out and with vengeance. I nearly fainted.
I took Tylenol and a twenty minute nap became a six hour rest. I woke near 2000, and decided just after midnight that I needed more medical treatments. The Preparation H was left over from my eye-tattooing and had expired last April.
To Walgreens at midnight. Mr. J offered to grab what I wanted but since I had no idea, I came along.
The car ride was excruciating.
Witch-hazel and 1% Hydrocortisone cream... $13.
As soon as we got home, I put the cold witch-hazel on a face cotton pad and placed it on my sore bum. OUCH
There was nothing soothing about any of this.
It felt like Listerine with a fresh tongue piercing.
It made me bounce all around the bathroom like a wet cat.
Rinsed.
I tried the Hydrocortisone cream on a face cotton pad, and headed off to bed. I could hardly stand.
Sunday morning just before 0900, I woke feeling uncomfortably wet. I thought maybe I had started to heal. I touched the wet spot along my bikini line and realized it was blood.
I immediately rinsed, and check to make sure it was not vaginal bleeding. IT WAS NOT.
My huge hemorrhoid was still there, it had not burst, it was now something else inside my bowel was bleeding.
Really! Life you are mean!
I sat in a hot tub, just about 100 degrees, and only to my crotch. I felt horrible. I was really out of it.
I patted dry and could see that I was still bleeding bright red.
Mr. J was still asleep and I was exhausted, thus I laid down with the covers balled between my knees to allow air between my legs.
I called my mom for advice. She was unsure as it is hard to diagnose over a phone. I told Mr. J that we were headed to the ER as soon as we had some more sleep and coffee and breakfast. It would be a long wait with the treasonous and there was no reason to go right then, since I knew we would be pitiful without the three above. *I am already piddddy-ful!*
I woke about 1100 with a new coat of fresh blood.
Mr. J got up to make coffee.
I called the help nurse line to make sure that the ER would clarify to my insurance that this was a real ER issue and therefore not charge me the "unnecessary trip fee". The Permera Nurse was not at all helpful.
She just repeated everything back to me. And said, "IF I FELT I SHOULD BE SEEN THEN I KNEW BEST".
Um dumb and not helpful!
I then called the Group Health Nurse because they do not want you to be seen and therefore do more thinking.
She wanted to speak to my midwife. I laughed. I had called my midwife all week and only gotten her voice mail. We called. The nurse then called her emergency pager and got a hold of Sally.
Sally was very accommodating and told me that she had been at an all night delivery and that she was currently at Ballard Hospital. I live between Ballard and her house on one Street. She told me that she would be glad to come by my house. I was so pleased and shocked.
I cleaned up and she examined me. She was very kind to do so. Mr. J left the room, and she took a good look at my swollen and hurting bum. It had been about 10 minutes after I had bathed (again) to be seen. As I fear smelling. I was not sure if I should have left the third blood smear or rinsed it off.
I voted she would just believe me and rinse.
She said indeed that I had very bruised hemorrhoids.
The bleeding is rectal, and that there is not much that I could do. No surgeon will want to lance or cut them off as I am this pregnant.
She also told me that the first few days of hemorrhoids were horrible.
Now knowing that I can't bleed out, or become infected from my own bowels, and that I am not missing the chance to have a trombone hemorrhoid treated, (Web MD says that it has to be lanced in the first 48 hours or not at all), I feel better.
I feel better knowing that the pain is not something that I am wrong to ignore.
I feel better that she told me to not stand, or sit, but lay down. Because that is what I WANT to do.
I feel better knowing that we did not have to wait in hard plastic seats at an ER for hours and hours, to be sent to OB, (because I am pregnant) and then sent home because OB can't do anything by diagnose me.
I am thankful for God's very merciful hand in this.
I have no idea why this is a necessary step in my pregnancy. I have no idea why I am dealing with so many personal issues in this pregnancy. I have no idea why I did not just heal.
But I know that ALL things can be made to show HIS glory.
Today that was in the kindness and care of my midwife.
I will eat more bran, popcorn, and fiber. How I am not sure, because that is all I seem to eat for carbs.
I will love my Kitty, Mr.J, who has waited on me hand and foot all weekend and basically for the last few weeks.
I will love this baby who is kicking about inside me.
I know that all of this too will pass.
Maybe the purpose of this horrible 13 days of December where nothing in my life is Christmas Ready is to remind me that Christmas is not about making all my deadlines but about CHRISTMAS and surrendering my heart to the Lord in all the things in my own life.
I am most sure of the last part.
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Current Music: Mr.J game music
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December 12th, 2009
nobodey
| 12:04 am
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December 11th, 2009
katylin
| 12:59 pm - PIF IS NOW PAID IN FULL!!
We had made two HUGE credit card purchases to afford IVF.
The first credit card charge was over $20,000.
The second credit card balance transfer from another account was an insurance plan (back up loan) for costs that I could not see... (they kept adding up)
 We paid off the first $20,000 almost immediately.
But today I finally paid off the balance transfer loan.
The second card loan was for $6,500 all paid off with the final payment of $1,000 today.
Wheeew. BABY LOANS ARE PAID OFF!!
I am so so so so so happy.
I hate having something looming over my head.
I am broke, yes, broke broke broke
but we now own ever bump and kick inside this belly o' mine.
Merry Christmas MOM & DAD of PIF.
(there is nothing better that I could have been given!)
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nightrythm
 | 12:44 pm - Gay marriage in early church
I had read about this before but had forgotten about it. Here I share with you now.
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katylin
| 12:48 am - 12 weeks left...
I am surprised how fast this has been. It should be 12 more weeks until PIF is in our arms not my belly. WOW
Current Location: off to bed
Current Mood: impressed
Current Music: classical
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December 10th, 2009
nightrythm
| 04:48 pm - Gender and Violence
Jezebel has a really fascinating discussion about gender and violence here.
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December 9th, 2009
katylin
| 10:23 am - Me Pif and Giardia make 3, or is 4,5, or 6?
I finally got a doctors appointment after a week of flu like GI symptoms! And to my amazement, my most uncooperative GI track suddenly stop all together. I have not been able to provide a "sample". Stupid, dumb, amazing since I spent hours in the bathroom all weekend.
I was sent home with a "hat" and several vials and a tongue compressor to scoop from the hat into the vials. I am hopeful that my 12 ounces of coffee, consumed at 0730, will hurry up. It has been three hours already.
I am feeling like the michelin tire man.
Maybe I will take a snap shot of my new bio-hazard bag, and hat before it is used.
After all this, I get to go play boss tonight at work. What a drag.
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nobodey
| 12:02 am
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December 8th, 2009
nightrythm
| 11:01 am - *whingeing*
I want my house dammit!!!!
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nobodey
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December 7th, 2009
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December 6th, 2009
katylin
| 01:37 pm - PIF is 27 weeks old.
Eyes and ears will open next week. Time for a flashlight... time to have Justin read to the belly not my head.
I am still so tired. Tired like I have never slept.
Tired may beat out the Christmas Tree this year?
Current Location: home
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nobodey
| 12:03 am
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December 5th, 2009
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December 4th, 2009
katylin
| 01:13 pm - Mood Swings And Up and Down
I have been asleep for most of the week. Where some would say I need sleep, I am best when slightly fatigued and slightly manic. When I have too much sleep, depression sits on my pillow, like a buffer before my headboard.
I slept most of the time off I had between shift this last week.
Yesterday I slept almost 12 hours, and today more than 10.
I woke with hunger cramps, Enoch telling me that he had not been fed, (kick kick poke poke).
With all this sleep comes a very unorganized and mess house.
I opened my "new" brain candy and played my old but now my very own CD of Rotersand. Somewhere in the first song, my heart was so cheerful, the sound of noise driving you to a new destination.
It often reminds me of attending a concert with 1,000 fanatics.
You may know all the tunes, all the lyrics, but you have no idea where you will be driven by the noise. Will they play your favorite, mash them up, mix them to new heights or be crashed by the police in riot gear?
I started with this smile: looking up New Years Firework information, trying to contact someone in the office of my church, looking at the farmer's almanac for a baby shower, and then found myself stuck in hearing a weight loss video scam. Why do scams have to be so freaking long, some 20 minutes later, I am exiting out of the page, once, twice, yes I am really sure an I am tired of this playing, hope this is the final X.
Now it is almost half past noon, both sides of the sink are filled with dishes. Dishwasher is full up, and my hands are enjoying the feeling of 135 degree water. My new dish gloves, lay beside the sink with a hole in them. No point to have wet gloved hands as the gloves really just make it harder for me to hold the silverware.
My little view from the kitchen window is all steamed up. In white pattern across the glass I can see a film of my youth.
All and All plays out of the recycled ghetto blaster, and pours down the counter and across my floor, pooling over my feet.
Sobs of streaming tears fall into the hot soapy water, as I wonder why it is that there is still so much pain inside me.
I feel so very very alone.
My home has always been the cool-aid house and now it is so still.
My life friends are states away, and the other friends that I have met in the last five years are somehow the same distance away.
It is not necessary to see a friend's eyelashes when conversing, and time has taught me that it is just as unnecessary to really hear their voice.
Yet, something in the spontaneity of unexpected presence is inequitably missing.
( All In All )
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willabark
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sexy_l0sers
| 06:37 am - Sexy Losers #259 - Chafed Dickens [3 of 5]
http://sexylosers.com/259.html The third part of the Chafed Dickens storyline, with Chie Sakamachi as the ghost that shows Mike his woeful present state. Next week: we take a short break from the Dickens storyline to end Volume 5, and after that we will continue, with the storyline finishing on Christmas Day.
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